missdee90

Mine..
2013-11-11 20:29:49 (UTC)

Are the memories worth holding on to!!

movies and hanging out at the cafe are the worst times for me. I feel like i am lacking something.. or someone who have been there for me always. the sane side of me or i think the sane side of me, says i brought this upon myself or i am choosing to be this way.

I ask myself was it really worth it to have ended everything like that? was i right to notice things were not okay and ended it?. was i wrong to lookout for myself and my heart? what if i never responded to you 6 years ago when you said hello to me in the hallway?

to say the truth i did loved you and still love you for all those years we have been together. but i think what hurt me the most wasn't the fact that you lied to my face, it is the fact that i knew all a long what was happening but in my head i was worried more about hurting you than me getting hurt.. so i had to pretend and swallow my tears and go on as if nothing is wrong.

do you know how many phone calls and text messages i got from her? do you know how many harsh words she told me? even though i showed them to you, you said i made those up. you told me she is the most honest and prettiest girl you ever met. you said i was telling lies. you turn everyone against me. my friends. my family. you turn against me too. the only person i trusted and shared everything with.

now i think about it. i was a fool to love and grow attached to you. i was blinded to see properly. i thought i finally found someone who could be my friend and my ally. boy was i wrong? now i think about it, i realize maybe LOVE isn't so great at all. if something like this is suppose to bring joy and happiness, then why did it bring me pain?




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