He was on computer when i woke up. No talking at first but i couldnt hold. He is still as cold. Was gonna stay home had no movitation to do anything at all. Wechat teddy. Motivated me to go out. Ulta. Starbucks used free coffee. San mateo Marina use coupon for duck. Mall picked up philosophy. Dinner with teddy at mao. Took a sleeping pill. Shower. Did expences. still have hopes but its bad. He is out having fun and im Phil now. I should get on with my much better life.