Watasumi Kasai

Complaining about shit
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2013-10-02 07:50:37 (UTC)

This Shit

Been a while......^^.

Let's see. I had a crush but it died out. The guys didn't seem to want to take notice me. Actually, he ignored me more times then I can count. Kinda makes me feel like I'm not attractive....lol...(¬_¬). A guy I use to like in my teens got married the other day. I wasn't able to make it to his wedding but I'm glad for him. I called him up an wished him congratulations. He's kinda short for a guy so I made a little joke about him being all grown up. He said "well you're short too." My response "I'm a girl, I can get away with that."
Him" No you can't.
Me "Why not?"
Him "You've always been one of the guys. So can't get away with it."
Me "......ah...lol. Yeah I'm going to have to make sure later."
I didn't realize how much those words hurt until I really thought about it. None of the guys I've ever liked has thought if me as a girl. To be told that by the guy I use to like, who've just happen to get marred to some women I've never met and didn't even know he was serious about. Don't insult be you asshole. I wasted so much of my time on him when I was younger. He never even rejected me. It's laughable, isn't? I say I'm happy for him and I feel like I really am. I wonder how I really feel though. I know I still don't have feeling for him, those have been dead a long time. I'm certain that I feel bitter, just not sure about which part. Him getting married. Him not giving me a chance when we were younger. Him being insensitive. Maybe it's all of them or maybe I'm just suck of people getting married all around me like its a new fad. I have younger brothers and two of them have gotten married in the past year. One of them had been married for the past five. 3btothers married and with children.

But here I am by myself and lonely. I can't even make friends properly. Why the hell am I so screwed up????