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pit_for_her
2013-09-24 00:20:03 (UTC)

Day 8 What makes you insecure? How do you handle insecurity in the context of your relationship? Outside the relationship? How does your Owner handle it? If you are not in a dynamic, have you identified areas where you are insecure? How are you dealing w

What makes me insecure?.....well, for starters, childhood issues that led to absolutely no self confidence, years of what i thought were failed attempts at anything and everything compounding my lack of confidence, numerous attempts at relationships that all failed horribly, my fault of course.

In the relationship with Celtic, my insecurities are almost a constant issue. i will feel good one minute then in an instant i will feel like i am lost, alone, abandoned. it is years of low self esteem compounded with failed relationships, giving up on myself constantly and i am sure numerous other bad things i cannot recall at the moment.
They are in my face every day when i wake and sometimes when i go to bed. They creep up on me when i least expect them, they kick me when i am down, they drag me down when i am up, they are my strongest and worst enemy! i have had many, many successes in my life, more that i can count even, but they all seem to fade away quicker that cockroach running when you cut on the lights.
i have learned through years of counseling and self discovery that I am better than that! I am an incredible human being! I can do anything I choose to do because I believe in myself! That is a lot easier said that done, however, i am working hard at believing in myself. It is a struggle each and every day but i will do it! Celtic_lover is helping me to be strong, helping remind me of who i am, making me be accountable for myself and believe in myself!




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