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SPILT MILK
2013-09-21 23:58:32 (UTC)

Is He or Isn't He?

I seriously wonder if "M" is the man for me...I mean, one minute he means the world to me and then the next he really makes me want to vomit. He is nice and sweet but he can be stubborn and he's not always good with the baby. He does things that aren't safe and then when I express my concern about it he becomes defensive. What caring, loving parent does that?? If you loved your child wouldn't you want to make sure that they were safe at all times?

Tonight we really had it out!! I asked him to pleeeeaaase leave! I am so miserable at times and he (as far as I am concerned) has his head so far up his ass, it's ridiculous.

I wonder...am I cursed?? Other things in my life are going well but this...

So...is he or isn't he the right one for me? Can't be...would I be disgusted by a man that was the right one for me? Would I have to beg him to keep his child safe or at least to admit that some of the circumstances he puts the child in is unsafe?!! Would he allow his family to treat me like dog grade "A" shit and then get upset when he feels I'm disrespecting them?

I'm sooooo done. Tired of trying when I know I am unhappy. He is slow mentally and I really do feel I am settling. It's funny cause I used to put myself down and feel like he was settling but now I definitely know different!




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