Vanilla

I miss love

I miss being in love...i miss feeling loved. Its sort of empty not being able to trust, or commit again. Is this it then? If i never let anyone in again that means i will never ever feel love again and its kind if sad thinking about living a whole lifetime like this. Its like no matter how much i miss it sometimes i cant help but run a mile at the thought of being with a man again. Its been a year and a bit now since the ex he has moved on completely fine...so am i just going to be here alone forever. What if i never feel again? I miss feeling something...i wish my heart would beat again. Damn him screw everyone im never gonna trust again damn my shitty life. This is it!! He really screwed it up. I wish someone would fix me =(