DayDreamer23

Figurative Language
2013-09-09 01:06:04 (UTC)

Raw

Dear Kitty,


Think about something that makes you want to scream, just absolutely sob and cry and burst with emotion. That raw emotion that is so honest and beautiful and indescribable. That is what i love about humanity. expression of emotion is by far the most vulnerable thing a person can do. Letting down those walls that hold us into our lives and our minds everyday is like trying to sneak out of North Korea at times.
I feel alive when i see these beautiful, heartbreaking, awe inspiring, thought provoking displays of emotion. Whether it be a screaming fan loosing their mind over a book or singer or any other idol, or the wailing sobs of a lover, no matter what; when you get to that point of release, that point of pure feeling, you feel open to the world. You are really honestly letting everything go.


I'm trying to write so much about this emotion that i'm feeling over emotion provoking emotions! And i can't seem to get the words out of my head and onto here. Like i have some sort of mental block, like i can't think of words and nothing is coming. I just want to scream. And it's probably because i'm tired and a little bit sick and had Homecoming yesterday night which was so fun but also really awkward and such a struggle and i don't even know how to tell you all the things i've been feeling lately because they are so silly or petty or over the top or crazy or whatever and i can't take them all in and i'm stressed and depressed and excited and tired and everything is just a blur sometimes. Like i feel like i'm going to throw up righ now but i don' think i actually will because i don't throw up a lot and i really need to go to school tomorrow. But then i think about the struggles of people who have lives ten times more fucked up than mine and i just step back and look and go 'wow' Because i don't think i would be able to handle myself like that. I know a girl who is SIXTEEN and she is moving out of her parents house to live with her 22 year old boyfriend who just got her pregnant. She's keeping the baby, but she's also drinking and smoking through the pregnancy while trying to work and going to high school online. I don't know how to feel for her because i've known her since middle school and i don't know her family situation or anything but she has really fucked herself over and her boyfriend or what ever has obviously fucked her over too, It sucks it really does. That girl is just slipping away from the future she could have had and it's sad. It's like watching your friends die young, like we've already started loosing kids to the horrors of adult hood.
You can see it in her eyes, she's been forced into this part of life that she didn't know she was signing up for and what is she to do now. She's got this kid on the way and she can barely even hold a job. I don't know.
I just really don't know.




Ad: