cuteepie111

Secrets of a Thousand Tales
2013-09-03 18:21:28 (UTC)

Life- Is It Worth It?!?

So a lot more shit has happened since I last wrote. I got raped. I've been bullied. I've gone to the hospital many times due to self-injury, and I now am switching schools, finally. I am taking medicine, but it doesn't change anything. Every second, every minute of every hour I have to relieve the pain I so badly want to run away from. Having to be forced to dig deeper, ever so deeper, to get where these people want to go. I am digging a hole I won't be able to climb out of again. Waking up seems as impossible of a feat as flying. Having to tear through the haze of depression and anxiety that is the day to come. It won't do anything. But I manage. I manage because I can't stand to see my mom cry, her little baby having to go through what she is going through. Because my dad is fighting, and so is my sister. Because I know that if I succeed in what I so badly want to do, then it will tear the very foundations of so many people I love apart. So suicide will have to wait.

Feedback would be appreciated.




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