Sunday 25th August.
on Friday night Claire msged saying that she wasn't going to come to mount gambier anymore.. at first I thought she was just joking because I locked this, but apparently she's for real. sometimes I don't understand her at all. I feel like I know where i'm at with her and stuff, and then she just comes out of nowhere and changes everything. she says it's a bad idea and she wants to keep things simple. if simple is what she wants, why do we even bother to keep in contact? i'm caught between a rock and a hard place, because i'm fed up with everything.. it really pains me. but at the same time I can't stop thinking about her and I like her so much :( she hasn't even explained anything or talked to me hardly, but what can I do about it? I've tried asking her and all I got was "I don't want to", "I just don't wanna", "I don't wanna talk about it". she didn't even apologise or anything when she first said she decided she wasn't gonna come anymore, after she'd already told me she had decided she was going to. it was just blunt..