America

GreatWhiteBuffalo
2013-08-20 00:20:00 (UTC)

Fat

160 pounds.. Disgusting I know. I can't help it. I eat and eat, nonstop. I look disgusting truly. But, it won't stop. I'm soo tired of this heavyness the full feeling that won't ever leave my stomach.. Looking this way. Last summer I weighed 115. I looked great, but there was a cost. No food, binging on water tea and coffee, the concentration it took to say no to that delicious looking fat piece of pie.. And now here I am disgusting. I have to start again. Try one more time. Focus again on my saggy breasts, my cellulite filled thighs, my arms that look like wet-dough bags if anything, and the roll of fat under my once defined chin. I'm disgusting, fat, obese. So unattractive. I ask my boyfriend all the time, how can you love me? I think he might be in love with my brain.. And, if I keep this up soon not even that.. I'm a pig.. So hungry all the time, desperate for another bite even when there's no room in my stomach but.. As of today, it stops. I promise and ill keep this words in mind. Bear with me ill get there.




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