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2013-08-16 00:49:52 (UTC)

Quesadilla Night

8/15 8:50pm - Alysia and Aliyah are making me go to quesedilla night. I hope I don't cry...

9:50 well..quesadilla night sucked. Waitress was rude, my drink was wrong, they overbilled me, then charged my card twice! and I was only there for less than 40 minutes... I couldn't eat...food just makes me sick. BRIGHT SIDE: I had to drink my drink so fast I think I'm a little buzzed...maybe I will sleep well for the first time in weeks.

What did I do...I should've seen everything falling apart and did something to fix it before this happened. Now i am just empty and dying...

If I could have one wish, what would it be: the truth, or to forget? At this point, I don't even know anymore... I wonder if there is a hypnotist who can make me forget you... I'm gonna look. Forgetting has to be better than the pain. I have too much to lose to be a drunk or get high. And what other way is there really to be numb? I get why now tho that so many people do it. This...what I am feeling all the time, every day, every night...its too hard. I wonder how long I can take it before I break..

Why can't you come and rescue me? Why aren't you here anymore to make the sadnesses in my life go away? Why is the one person on the planet who can make everything ok, is the same one hurting me?

Why are you so cruel?




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