Depressed

Confessions
2013-08-13 08:15:00 (UTC)

Still Living

I have been doing really good actually. Can't wait for school to start back up. I get to see all my friends again. I think its gonna be kind of like a family reunion. Has anyone else ever felt that way about their friends? Guess that's just another way in which I am unique. Making me even more awesome! My aunt said I was kind of conceded today. I don't really think so. I just like to think I'm really awesome. Even if at times when I'm not. Its all I really have going for me. That and my smarts. Even though I only have little of those. Its nice to know I can write whatever here and no one will read it and judge me. Negatively anyway. I don't want pity. Nobody understands me at all really. It really can get lonely. I was watching a movie the other day and something somebody said really got my attention. Everyone wears a mask. I truly believe this because it feels like I'm living three diffferent lives. Needin to be all these different people to please others. I don't really think I could make it in the real world. I'm short tempered and don't think I could hold a job. Maybe ill just become a librarian. I really want to open my own orphanage and maybe be a writer or a lawyer. I'm kind of scared to be a lawyer. I keep thinking people would come for me and try to kill me like in the movies. Its three thirty right now and I'm so tired but I can't sleep. My baby causin is gonna be here at nine and I have to be awake because my mom wants to sleep. She's at work right now and she hasn't been getting much sleep so I don't really care. Plus I love my baby causin. She's so adorable. I don't really like her mother though. She's my uncles girlfriend. She's kind of snotty and stuck up. No one else really likes her either. Her own baby likes me more then she likes her. At this rate she'll be calling me mommy. I'd correct her of course. Explain that I'm not mommy. She has blonde hair and blue eyes. Cutest little thing I've ever seeen. Hopefully I'm not spelling things wrong. I'm on my phone and can't see the whole thing on my screen. Man I'm tired but I have to stay up. I can't help but ramble on and on when I'm tired. You know what? Forget it! I'm going to sleep. Goodnight to all.




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