TroublingMind

ATroubledMind
2013-07-22 10:15:04 (UTC)

I'm Alone

You know, there are some people that still have hope in finding the right one. To be honest, I dont think there is one. For me. I can barely keep a normal conversation with people. I keep to myself. I'm just so lost. I cant even describe how lonesome it is. Its just like you wish someone would be there holding you until you fall asleep, not letting you go. Someone that has no other girl in there mind. But no shit, thats never gonna happen. I mean me? Come on, theres no way. I'm just a rebound. I'm just becoming numb to the truth. We live, we breath, no particular purpose, we die. People try to find reasons that were here so that they dont have to succumb to the hard cold truth. Thats what scares me. Yes, i'm not afraid to admit i'm afraid to die. I dont want to waste this life because it may be the only one i get. But i dont think i can do anything. I'm just one out of billions of people that are useless. What do i do? I've been keeping a fake smile, and "everything is ok" act going on for too long. I'm just going to shut myself down. Feel nothing. For now I am dead. Maybe one day i'll come back, if someone finds me. But i doubt that, because the only person that can save me is myself. I've come to know that. So goodbye. For now.




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