Jen29

Another Day In My Life
2013-07-12 09:30:14 (UTC)

Ready for more change...

Well this is my ssecond entry.. I am so glad that I have the free time to write! I am ready for more changes for me and my family. I am currently living in a shitty situation, one that puts my sobriety at risk everyday, not to mention my freedom. I am tired of the 2 faces of Stefanie.. My sister in law is a royal cunt who thinks the world revolves around her even though it does not. I cant walk thru a room with out her smart ass mouth commenting on something.. Even though she knows I am in recovery she makes no effort at all to not smoke around me, and will blow the shit right in my direction knowing that it gets to me.. Short of sitting in my room all the time isolating myself from her and my inlaws there isnt much I can do. We are in the process of trying to get on our feet, with not much luck since I have fines and mountains of other shit that I struggle every month with to get paid off. I am about at my wits end with the sis in law though.. I can't keep biting my tongue and not saying anything but in order for me to keep the peace while we are living here I have no choice. Everyone says kill her with kindness but after a while of that getting me no where it gets old too. I am just fed up.. Sometimes I just want to knock the fuck out of her and laugh about it.. Wouldnt be the first time her and I have been in a physical altercation but for the sake of my honeys parents and out roof over our heads I am trying to keep my composure. Not going to last to much longer though. I try to vent about it to Chris but I know he gets tired of it as much as I do and deals with as much as I do. It isnt fair to him or I that she treats us like shit and I dont know what else to do other than to keep trying to be the better WOMAN (something she knows nothing about being at 34 yrs old) and move on with it. Im just starting to feel over whelmed by all of it!




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