dying2bethin

my friend ana
2013-07-02 02:39:02 (UTC)

done

i'm done
with cutting
with restricting food
heres the story

please read all :)

my mom found out about my cutting
it's only been 2 days since i started
it crazy how fast she found out
i never wanted to do anything to hurt her
it turns out my sister cut when she was around my age
i had no idea :(
i gave my mom my blade
i will never cut again
i swear
she kept telling me
how god loves me , she loves me
i may feel lonely but i am loved so r u
and she doesn't want me to ever hurt myself
we r so very very very close
so i just had to tell her i've been restricting
and i really am stopping cutting
but i guess i'm not pro ana anymore
i will still be ur ana buddies
becuz i kno what u go thru
plz don't be mad at me for stopping
this was my plan becuz i didn't want long term damage
i was going to see
if doing this 4 a while
made me keep doing
without thinking about it
like just eat less
cuz i got used to it
i am still overweight
and do need encouragement
i don't think being pro ana is dumb or stupid
i just never want to do anything to hurt my mother
or myself again or my god in heaven
so i still need to exercise
i can post tht
and i will still lose weight
the healthy way
to brandon and anyone else
who said this to me
thanks
just don't bother pro ana's about it
it's very annoying but i understand
it took my mom finding out 4 me to stop
so i don't think u as a stranger
can change their thoughts
to all my ana buddies
i am still ur friend
and u can talk to me about it all u want
ur never really alone u can talk to someone
the whole thing was very touching
she told me how much i am loved
she used to diet too
she kissed my cuts as the tears
ran down my face
i'm crying right now
just thinking about how much
she loves me
u can get through
even if u choose to stay pro ana
i will always be ur friend
~love~ alyssa hall




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