wet blanket
2013-06-18 12:02:23 (UTC)

I'm getting worse

I couldn't help it
I know I shouldn't have done it. I shouldn't have even kept my razors to tempt me. I knew I wasn't strong enough to get through this winter. I'm pathetic.
I cut. Up my arm, it's the worse place to cut because it's so obvious, that's why I used to resort to my ankle. But I missed doing it on my arm it just feels... right. I know I'm a failure and I've let down so many people. But I won't tell anyone because that puts my problems on them , liam already had to go through nicole attempting suicide and emma gets anxious if she knows I cut. They don't need to know.. I'll just try getting through it by myself. I really did think I was better for a while though.
I'm not really sure what triggered it
. Maybe brodie.
I mean I should be happy I have nick and great friends but I still get these huge waves of loneliness. I don't know why and I hate it.
I just sit in my room and listen to sad music and cry. For hours on end
Have I been completely losing sanity?
School is stressing me out and my self esteem is so terrible

I'm not sure if I can do this anymore.