xo-wallflower

xo-wallflower
2013-06-03 10:40:10 (UTC)

My weekend

Well this weekend was kinda interesting, but not in the best way. Kinda glad it was over and at the same time I'm not. I hate Monday's that's why. But let's get started on what happened this weekend.
Firday: During this day I had school. I don't really remember how the day went to be honest I was just glad that school was done and it was the weekend. So I was home for a bit after school. My sister had her boyfriend over because it was their one year together. My sister, her boy friend, my oldest brother and I decided to go for a walk. We walk to Safeway. My sister and her boyfriend went into Safeway while my brother and I went to the liqour store. I bought coolers. We all then went over to my sisters boyfriends moms house first, then his dads and then we went to 711. After that we finally went home. I decided that I was going to drink tonight. I open up my Alochol and start drinking. I was thinking of getting drunk, but I didn't. I was tipsy. It felt good. We all watch the movie Ted. Even though I didn't pay much attention because I was tipsy. That night was good, it had some flaws in it but whatever.
Saturday: Today was the day I was going to go grad dress shopping again. The first few times didn't go well. I was determined to find a beautiful dress to wear to the grad dinner. My sister and I went down town on bus. I very much hate riding a bus. But this time I was actually okay. Didn't think of any of the fears I have for riding a bus. We got off and we were down town. Down town isn't a very good place at all. Lots of crimes and horrible stuff. I was scared shitless. We were lost. We couldn't find a specific place I was looking for. So we walked around for a bit. I was so scared and nervous. I felt like I could possibly have a panic attack. There were so many creepy people around. These two guys tried talking to us. We decided to go into dollarama. My sister wanted to buy bottled water. While we were in the store we witness this guy hiding and spying on the two people. I was honestly really creeped out. We left the store and started walking to see and group of guys hiding behide a building pointed and some guy alone and then they started to walk towards him. I then realized that they were going to go jump the guy. That's when I really was about to have a panic attack. I was so freaking scared. I'm never down town. I don't know the area and I wanted to leave so badly. We kept walking we went into a few stores and looked at grad dresses, but sadly I never found a dress that stood out to me. I never got one and now i'm not going to my grad dinner. That day was pretty scary for me but I was very glad to be home safe.
Sunday: Today was a crazy day. I actually didn't go to bed until 2:30am. I went onto web advisor. Web advisor is on the university website, you get an account when you apply and you go to it to check if you got accepted and you apply for classes on there. I went on at 2 in the morning to check if it changed. It did. I was declined. I didn't get accepted and it hurts a lot. I cried myself to sleep. I feel like such a failure for not getting accepted. I didn't know what I was going to do. I was scared to tell my parents. I didn't want them to be disappointed in me. I just want to make them proud. I woke up at 8:30am to tell my parents the bad news. I'm not exactly sure on how they feel about me not getting accepted. But I do know I how I felt. I felt like a loser, a failure, too stupid, not good enough. I felt horrible. My parents and my sister then left to go look at getting a puppy. My mom always wanted a yorkie. I stayed home with my oldest brother. Didn't go well. Within 20-25 minutes we were fighting. Yelling at each other. He then starts making fun of me for not getting accepted to university. It was just too much for me. I walked out of my house in a t-shirt, sweater, and pajama pants. No shoes or socks. I had my iPod in my pocket and I went for a walked. I went to an elementary school. Looked at my iPod to see free wifi. I sent my sister a text telling her that I wasn't home and why. I sat there crying. I felt like complete shit. I was able to text my sister throughout the time they were picking up a puppy and me not being at home. I didn't mind not being home expect for I was in pjs with no shoes and I really had to pee. I was gone from home for a bit over an hour. I didn't want to go back to see my oldest brother. Finally I went back because my parents were home. I got to see the cute little puppy they bought. (Welcome home Bentley) The rest of the day was good. And now here I am at night. I have an English exam tomorrow morning and right now it's around 11:40 at night. I guess I should be going to sleep, but that was my weekend.




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