badkidd

Lonely boy..
2013-05-20 03:40:42 (UTC)

cried a lott...

wokup at 9 o clk.. i saw kiks missed calls which ws frm 6 o clk to 7 at mrng.. yup thr were 6 of them, mens she ws calling me.. i think it ws for water.. i called her back and it ws engaged.. then again it ws ringing bt she ws rejecting all calles.. again it ws engaged.. i calld abt 14 times bt..

i felt bad..

then, i ws waiting till 1 o clk, for her to come back.. and at 1 o clk, i saw her taking her lunch to room and i stopped her.. i sked her y didnt she picked her call.. she ws angry n said, "y didn't u picked my calls?" i said, "i ws sleeping.." ..
"okay, i ws also sleeeping,.." then i asked , "oh u were sleeping at 9 o clk? i knw u wernt and it ws engaged.." then she goes, "yes i intentionally didnt, coz wen i called u u werent sleeping at all..and my need is over nw.." and i followed her to her rom, it ws shut and after loong knocking, response came, "mentes, i wont open d door nw" i said, okay.. u take ur stuff..i ws carryng the pasta which she asked me to get yestrday.. "okay, i will take it afterwards...not nw.." i kept it on the door and left..

i felt damn unhappy.. and even tears were coming, wen i reached my room.. i dnt knw y..

i texted,
"i ws really sleeping, wen u called me..pls try 2 undrstnd me.."

"i dnt knw y u get angry on me always..being frndz is this much painful? did i ever ever rejected ur calls? sorry if u felt hurt.."

"........" [ yeah, 1 more msg i sent bt i dnt remember it nw...]
bt it ws also something very very emotional stuff, came out of my heart...

and then i went to afternoon classes.. i wasnt feeling any heat, evenif i didnt take umbrella.. i ws like half crying, but i hid my tears..

the classes were okay.. but didnt feel interested...

btw at 2.30 i got a call frm my HOD.. i had sent a mail to my guide for project guidance.. he had forwarded it to HOD..
he said, we were tryng to contact Dr.Vinit Kumar bt it wasnt possible for me.. so i forwarded a mail containing ur project proposal and so u pls meet him once.. and tell him to call me back.." i said, "okay sir, thank u sar.."

yeah, he said something else too..
"you are most welcome to our division..." man, i felt damn happy.. i dnt knw y... might be he said it as a formality, but for me it was like heaven...

u knw, for the last 1-2 weeks i was feeling i was totally abandoned by everyone.. even y guide/HOD was not giving any response.. and as usual i was alone here, isolated from each and every one of my so called batch-mates... so after 2 hrs of class, i had free time for 1 hr, frm3.30 to 4.30pm.. i went to cc and took printouts of bills some books which i have purchased online...

[yup, we had to finish purchasing our books in this mnth itself, if we want to avail reimbursement..]

then went to meet Vinit Kumar.. it ws a bit dificult to findout his office.. i wandered here and there in that hot sun, but finally called up yashvir sir from Ph.D. [he is wrking under him..]

he came out of the building and lead me to his office... i presented the situation to Dr. Vinit Kumar.. he casually looked at me and said, "yeah.. i have seen the e-mail.. but currently 2 students have joined here and its a bit crowded.. and i can't offer you a chair or a computer right now.. anyway, i have to discuss this with my division head.."

i felt like he is a bit reluctant to take me.. yeah, i have done very bad in his subject, when he taught us complex algebra..and i have got sucking marks it it too...but im not sure, its a small doubt.. [ yes, already im having a prejudice on him.]

then, returned to training school and it ws lodha sar's class at 4.30 to 5.30.. yes, he teaches good...

then when i returned kiks ws coming down.. and came to ma room and started talking normally, as if we r close frnds..i ws a bit surprised too...
at beginning i ws reluctant to talk, bt she ws asking me abt project, guide etc etc.. i askd her y did she do it at mrng.. sh esaid, what else u expect, either u shudnt have msgd me or u shud have wokup early.. i tried to convinced her bt i dnt knw hw much she is convinced..then she said, she wanted to take a bath badly and so took key of room no.4 [ me nearby room, which is empty] and it wsnt clean so went back and took bath frm Ravi's washroom...

fuck, she can get into ravi's washroom, but wen i asked, she cant even step into mine... wtf is it? i told he rhtis too.. she said, "yes if i feel urgency i can do that..."
may be im a dirty fellow, may be im a barbarian who eats beef and all those stuff.and i may nt be innocent too..yeah, may be i have hidden intentions too..
but i do feel it like im an outcast here..dome kinda untouchable.. omg when does ppl from my country will give up all these blind rituals and become more civilized..

i dream of a country which have goos people only.. everyone is treated same and everyone is respected. irrespective of their religion, region, cast, language, eating habits, lifestyle, believes and origin..omg, at least my children or grand grand children will live in such a country..? will my society grow up..?

then as ravi came and said her something like water came/leakign frm her room she left.. and i went out to main gate by bus of 7 o clk...

i got a pillow cover for Rs.50/- and i felt happy about it.. i should have purchased it much before, when i came here.. then got a pack of milk and cigarettes...

i met Ravindran uncle there and he dropped me upto hostel..

then, didn't feel like dinner even though i was hungry... took the milk half and wished to sleep early but i cudnt.. one thing led to another and Rohila sar came and exchanged my broken bed from room# 4..

yeah, at 8.30 i ws calling outside and saw something.. kiks coming down to soharabs room and he comedown wid her, openong the door of room#4 and she takes the filled bucket from washroom, and leaves to her room.. and he is locking the room and key is with him.. i think he returned it to the reception...

then,




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