badkidd

Lonely boy..
2013-05-10 06:19:51 (UTC)

humiliated again....

yesterday i was chatting wid my internet frnd and aksh.. i shared evrything wid him.. we chatted till 3.30 am i think..

then mrng wokup at 9.30 got ready.. i wanted to go wid kiks.. so i called her and she ws nt picking.. i called afdter some time and then asked her, "wen r u gng to sign..?" then she said, " i will go.."
" i want t go with u,, so come thru here while u go.." she said, "no, we will meet at reception and i will giv u miss call.."
yup she miss called and i went.. bt she has alredy started walking as i ws a bit [ may b 1 minute ] late...

then on d way again she denied to get me in her umbrella.. i asked her, " but other ppl can get into ur umbrella,, y nt me?" she said, " nopes, u alredy hav an umbrella, so y shbud i? y dnt u bring ur umbrella..?"
we wnt to small fight and further i told her, " u r humiliating me .. y do u do this?"
she said, "mentes, dnt talk bull shit just shut up keep quiet and walk..now. i wont even listen to u if u talk bullshit again.."

but i repeated BULLSHIT again...and again... but she ws like it dsnt even affect her or she ws nt even listening...

while cmng back also it happend..
i asked her foe fun, " wen did u washed ur socks?" it ws damn dirty..

she told, "its my wish.. y do u care?"

i told, "obviously its ur wish, but i just asked,. and its my wish to ask u.. and its okay.."

"no its not okay.."

and then i asked her to come 2 ma room but she said, "no.. even if its for my wrk, i wont come now.. i told u if i dnt want to come, if i dnt feel to come, i wont come.. i come if i feel like only.. and watever u say now its nt gonna wrk.."

i folowed her to 3rd fllor stll she ws nt listening...


fuck.. Y DO I RUN BEHIND HER LIKE A DOG? Y DONT SHE SEE ME AS A HUMAN.. I AM TOTALLY HUMILIATED.. IM SURE IF ANYONE DOES EVEN A SMALL FRACTION OF THIS BEHAVIOUR TO HER [AS SHE BEHAVE 2 ME..] SHE CANT ACCEPT IT AT ALL...


after cmng 2 room i called her.. but she ws nt picking d call...

then i msged her..

"idk y u behav so rude 2 mebt its so painful.. Btw u asked me 2 bring sweets frm hom.. Al these days i ws calling u 2 giv dat.."

"n frm nw onwards i wil try nt 2 dstrb u anymor bt nt sure hw succesful i wil b.. (Success always sucked me)Good luck bye"

its 12.03 pm nw... i smoked again bt nt getting any kick nw... other than the smell of smoke..

omg, y do i get scrwed up always..?
y do i run behind ppl those who dnt care me at all.? y cant i change my focus to some1 else...

now i think even in future i cant be in any knda relationship [ nt even frndship] to any1, especially grls...
what is d assurance that at some point later she wont leave me..
omg, im losing trust in evryone... losing hope too.. im not that stuborn..

Is there any meaning to these sufferings? will these pll who ditch me realise their mistake, ever?
i dnt think so..

wat i feel like is that, THER R 2 KINDA PPL AROUND...
1. THOSE WHO R HAPPY.. THEY WILL BE HAPPY ALWAYS AND WLL CONTINUE TO WIN ALL THE TIME.. AND WILL GET WATEVER THEY WANT IN LIFE.. MONEY. RELATIONSHIPS, NICE FAMILY AND ENJOYMENT..

2.LOSERS... THEY ALWAYS CONTINUE TO BE LOSERS.. WEREVER THEY GO THEY WILL BE LOSERS.. THEY GET DITCHED AND SUFFERING IS THEIR BEST FRND...

DO SUFFERING HAS ANY MEANING?




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