A girl that

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2013-04-24 04:12:29 (UTC)

Love.

Most girls from the moment they're born are programed to espire to find a prince. We're taught from a young age that one day a man will come a long who will save us from all our problems. They cramm disney movies, love songs, love stories, just never ending strings of romantic notions that teach children that every women needs a man to be complete. In addition, giving certin individuals the unrealistic belief that finding your true love is the way every tale ends. Which is some serious B.S. if you ask me. Don't get me wrong I would love to be ignorent enough to believe that one day I will fall in love and all my problems will fade away. It is just I simply cannot lie to myself like that, oh how I try but it never works.
The evidence that true love is just as much of a fairy tale as the story of sleeping beauty is plain and simple... I have NEVER and I mean NEVER seen anyone in love. I'm 15 and a half and not once in all my years have I seen it. Sure I've been around dating couples, married couples, and newly wedds, and let me tell you NONE come even remotely CLOSE to those bull shit love stories they have been feeding us ever since we came out of the womb. My parents for example sure they might have been "in love" 20 years ago, but that feeling fades after a while. I haven't seen them kiss once in the last 8 years or hug or say anything remotely nice. Then you take my bestfriends parents who were high school sweet hearts that got knocked up at 17. Yah they're still together and still care about each other, but they aren't in love anymore. They don't look at each other like they wouldn't know what to do without one another, they don't kiss, and laugh together. Maybe it's just love is different in real life then it is in all those books, movies, and songs, maybe you can still call it love even though it's not as easy and magical as we have made it out to be.
Honestly though how would I know? I've only had 3 boyfriends and none of them were recent. Hell the most experience I have with "machture dating" comes from the endless number of books I have poured over for the past 3 years. It could even be possible I'm just angry I've never gotten the chance to test love out for myself. Yet, after watching the couples that surround me daily I'm septical to ever try and fall in love. The thing is I desire to one day have a nonrealistic relationship in which the hunky bad boy with sexy tatoos gives up his whorish ways because he falls head over heals in love with my dorky yet snarky personality after his first meeting with me. I yearn to be with a guy who makes me laugh and feel special. . . At the end of the day I know they are all empty wishes, but maybe, just maybe I will prove myself wrong and find out for myself what all this hype about "soul mates" and "true love" non-sense is.

P.S. Even if "soul mates" and all these other tall tales are possible, keep in mind not everyones story will end on that note a saddening fact that everyone should come to terms with.


Sincerely,
Girl who doubts LOVE




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