matthewlikespie

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2013-05-06 10:05:04 (UTC)

First entry my homosexuality

This is my first entry on my online diary. I'm not the best at writing in fact I aint good at all lol. I just want to get things out of my chest. I'm going to start by introducing myself my name is Matthew,I'm gay,14,I have 4 siblings,3 pets,I'm Hispanic,I'm also an otaku,and I was born on April 12 1998. I know my description seems vague, but I'll say more each diary.
Well my life isn't all that in fact It's kinda boring, but I'm not the type to whine and bitch about my life I just deal with it because I know others have it worse. Now I know what your thinking if I don't like to whine about my life why am I writing a diary well thats easy,because I can that's why. Well if you haven't read the first paragraph. I'm gay yes im gay I dealt with it and it was hard it was expecially hard coming out to my family. I came out to my family on Easter day just a week ago my cousin already knew,because I came out to her during Spring break. Well anyways my family accepted it and didn't care if I was gay,and I was really glad about that. I've always known I was kinda different from other boys I've always hung out with girls and if I did have a guy friend I would develop a crush on them. When I started going through you know.... puberty I started checking guys out. I also had a type of guy I liked which was fat guys lol so embarassing. In 6th grade I like most kids in my generation knew what sex was and what homosexuality was. So I knew by that time what I was,but I was in denial about it and I didn't want to be it. I thought of my self as bi until the summer before 8th grade I dealt with the fact that I was gay. At first I told random people on the internet like in chatrooms and then I told friends from my old schools then finally my family. I still though haven't come out to anyone at school im just really scared, because school is different I don't wanna lose my guy friends I have only a handful of them,and there really cool I also don't want the stereotypes to appear and a bunch of conceded popular girls just wanting to be my friend just, because I'm gay. I am going to come out I have too,but I don't know when. When I do I know I'm going to feel alot more better about myself.




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