Faith Hills.

♥my life(:
2013-04-01 18:51:56 (UTC)

Almost 2 months :l

wooow almost two months already and i just don't know what to do. when we're texting we talk about everything, but when we're in school and our friends are around because they're in that class he ends up throwing a fit about something. he always say sorry but soon enough sorry wont be enough. i really like him :l and on top of this he has basketball all summer! i will barely get to see him at all. what's he gonna do when another one of my guy friends are there and begin to take his place? i don't want him to quit because what if we don't work out? but we will never make it if i don't start seeing him :/ i just don't know what to do. he tells me he loves me. yeah not even two months & he said it. he has told me everything and he trusts me but what if i'm not ready to hold that in my hands? don't get me wrong. i like him. a lot. i really do. but we're just in high school. should he take it this far? he told pixie that if we broke up he would be depressed &junk. i don't even wanna think about breaking up with him. i love having him there. he makes me smile and feel special. he treats me right and everything else. he's one of those guys you don't wanna let go of. gosh sometimes i wish i could just get away to think straight. i've been depressed like this whole past week. shit just been going through my head. stuff like what if billy died? or if his brother or step dad got to him. what if he's like them. i hate to think of it like that but i worry so much. i mean, i've been in a relationship where i got hit around and i'm only 16. yeah i left him after a while but when billy gets mad he blacks out & that worries me the most. i just don't know what to think. deep down i want to believe it wont happen but it's what he has grown up with :/ sigh.. guess i'll sleep on it for a bit.




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