evemackenziex

E diary
2013-03-17 00:32:22 (UTC)

first entry

only just started this haaha omg im 12 and before high school evverything was amazing i was in primary work was easy i never got in to trouble i was headgirl i loved my friends i rarely fell out with them i thought high school was ment to be good. but its really not, i thought it was a big adventure i would make new friends..
i hate it , i wish i could re live primary because ever since september 5th 2012 my life has been constant drama hastle hate swearwords boys girls trouble . i just cant take it , works harder and i dont do it i cant believe i was headgirl and now i dont do homework i get constant detentions ( which only happen at my highscool when you get a step 4 hardly anyone gets detenetions anymore only terrible people) before i turned 12 i was called a slut a slag , someone pretended to be me on asssk.fm and asked someone out then i got hate for saying it wasent me. then she happened i thought she was one of my bestest friends chantelle i fell out with her in novvember it got really bad i swore at her she swore at me all on facebook never in person , then her sister and her cousins threatened me , i was threatened into apologising i never told anyone about it not my family not a teacher just my other friends , i cryed every night until it stopped oh god i was so blind i see that now . i fell out with her again early janurary and its still not resolved now ... its march . shes not a nice girl , but im not a saddo i wont go on about how much i hate her because im better than that . these days everythings about facebook . i love jacob , when he makes a crappy joke thats not even funny i laugh i cry in laughter , i think about him first thing in the morning and at night my heart explodes when he smiles at me his hair .. his smile his everything idk if he likes me but he asks me to go places with me and i do ,he throws rubbers at me in class and smiles at me but , he went out with my bestfriend and broke her and i cant see me asking him out , rejection just isnt me i couldnt take it if he laughed at me for asking him out then gossiped about it i would die. tbh i think im unlucky because every boy in st marys i have liked has gone out with mmy friends 0h well life goes on . when i was little i wanted to be a writer i had a passion for writing i got high levels in primary now its just not me , i love drama to be honest drama lessons just let me be me and i think im good at it . i thought oliver was gonna be mine forever i went out with him in year 5 till septemebr year 7 , i did love him i did but predjuce got to me if you get me if people knew i was going out with him i would be laughed at he wasent the best looking person , he had a bowl cut kinda and wore year 7 jumpers and was a nerd but he was my nerd and i miss him i do . he sent me a text when we broke up saying " i know we arent together but can i just say thankyou you have been the light of my light for a year " i cryed i had made the biggest mistake ever but its march and life goes on going bed now night<3




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