hopelessly bored

trial and error
2013-03-14 13:23:32 (UTC)

what the fuck did i think would happen?

stupid stupid stupid.

sometimes i seriously just want to go back in time and beat my own ass. i dont want to fucking talk to kyle right now. i'm so pissed off. call it hormones, whatever.

i just want to fucking run away. not just from him, but from EVERYONE. family. constantly bothering me about every little fucking thing, like i can't take care of shit on my own.

people texting me 19837385 times a day about the baby, yeah fuck you. you never fucking talk to me and now you want to know every detail of my life?! fuck you. thanks for caring about me before, when i might have actually needed you. i'm all grown up now and don't want to hear your stupid shit anymore.

seriously if one more person suddenly wakes up from their coma and decides to be a part of my life again i'm going to fucking stab them.

and my grandma is pissing me off. fuck i know she's excited to have a great grandbaby but for gods sake she's so annoying. basically i dont really care about your opinion on raising children if you did it in the middle of fucking nowhere in the 1960's... my kid lives on a different fucking planet. SORRY.

and fuck everyone who keeps thanking god for my blessing. seriously. FUCK YOU GUYS! let me come to a special event in your life and thank satan. you fucks. how fucking rude are you? how much more clear can i be that i don't want that garbage around my child?

UGH what the FUCK i wish people would just LEAVE ME ALONE! if i knew that having a kid would make me miss popularity i would have locked myself in a prison cell to give birth in. leave me the fuck alone, no you can't be in the goddamn room as i'm squeezing an infant out of my cooch, so fuck off. i'm sure you would want me staring deep into your vagina if the situation were reversed... NO? then fuck you!

and who are these random fucks who keep sending me gifts? how the fuck do they even know my name let alone that i'm having a baby? IS THIS REAL LIFE?! now i have to thank you and i have NEVER FUCKING MET YOU! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!! i dont need your kindness, i need you to mind your own business like you've happily done for the past 20 fucking years!

do not pray for my baby. do not attempt to baptize her, i will FLIP shit. omg the thought enrages me. people are so fucking rude. always barging into my life and thinking they know how to take care of me better than i do. what the fuck. where the fuck did my extended family come from, seriously? the pits of mordor?!?!!

and seeing that it is MY baby, who i fucking carried in my stomach for 9 months, who I have to squeeze out of my vagina, who i am responsible for feeding, bathing, nurturing and all the other shit i have to do, where do you get off giving me unwarranted advice? seriously!?!!!!!!

and especially those of you who dont have kids, what the fuck? WHO ARE YOU?! why do you think you have a fucking clue what you're talking about? i'm sorry but unless you've been pregnant you have NO FUCKING IDEA what its like. NONE!!!!!!!! and unless you've been a parent you DONT know, so shut your fucking mouth! jesus.




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