TroublingMind

ATroubledMind
2013-02-21 02:27:35 (UTC)

Rambling about things no one understands

I'm so lost right now. Why did I get myself into this shit? Why is it always my fault? Why do I always hurt the ones I care about? Why doesn't he care? And why do i keep shutting the other one out? He wouldnt understand. Neither one them would understand the places I've been. I'm a terrible person. Why cant I be a better person? I should die. I'm not good for anything. I'm useless. Everyone underestimates me. They dont really know me and they judge me by just one look. But they dont know whats buried beneath it. Pain. Lies. Horror. Possibly the thoughts of suicide are reoccurring. I cant even think straight but this might be where my end has to come. I cant handle it anymore... the stress, anxiety, the pressure, the judgement and the people. I cant live like this anymore. I dont know what to do. It doesnt matter how hard I try to overcome myself its impossible. I cant be better. I'm a terrible useless person that cant do a single fucking thing right. I dont need anyones pity. I've came to the conclusion that I cant care what everybody thinks anymore. It's not worth it. I should just do what makes me happy. Ending my life would make me happy, but yet i'm still to much of a coward to think of way to kill myself. Why do I do this? Why do I hate life so much? I'm at my breaking point. I cant handle anything else besides death.




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