MissFlowr_MTL

NewLifeinMTL
2013-02-18 11:56:16 (UTC)

i certainely hope this is nothing. . .

so, the weekends activities. . . . .i spent the weekend with my mom and on saturday we went to go see comedian jeff dye who was in town. while my boyfriend went out to the great Saltair for a Stonesour concert. and i didnt talk to him much thta night he texted for a couple minutes while me and my mom were at dinner. but last night we were talking on facebook and he said we needed to talk on the phone and i called him and he was tipsy had a little alcohol in him and he admitted to me there was a girl at the conert that he really got along with, and was talking about how they kissed a couple of times but he said that was as far as it went and that he told her he had a girlfriend and stopped the situation and that she kissed just like me and both times they kissed he thought of me instantly when he closed his eyes. but he felt terrible about it and called me to get it off his chest. he thought i was gonnna b absolutely pissed at him. but i'm not pissed at him for its endearing to know he was thinking about me but it is stupid that they kissed multiple times before he said anything. he very good that he's honest with me about it and will tell me what happens i just certainly hope that he's not out looking for it. but what bothers me is last night at a different time after he got that off his chest and had some time to recover from the small amount of alcohol he'd had we starting talking about my father and my feelings towards him. and he ranted to me that i cant have hate in my heart cuz if there is hate then there cant b love and that the hate will consume and even though my father is a bad man and wronged plenty of people i need to let it go, forgive him, not hate him. or else i will end up a lonely aging woman like my mother has. but during this whole thing he kept getting messages from someone else that kept coming and they kept getting more persistent throughout the night and even though we hung up the call at 430 in the morning there was someone still persistently messaging him, and he even moved into his room and was in his bed but he kept saying we both need to go to bed. and the closer we got to ending the call he seemed to b more energized than tired and it really irked me that he received a message i heard the ding he had time to read it and then his response to me was "i really need to go." and he just had this look in his eye like he wasnt gonna b going to bed anytime soon. it irked me and as soon as it happened i got a bad feeling in my stomach. . . . i felt like he was talking to the girl from the conert cuz i'm guessing that he at least is keeping in contact with her and thats probably who was talking to him while we were skyping. and i just saw my tylor situation happening all over again. i'm honestly hoping its nothing and that my mind is running away with irrational thoughts. but it is a possibility. i'll let u know how things go from here, i'm not gonna get mad at him and interrogate him about it. cuz thats just counter-productive.




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