HOPE

Lucky_Me
2013-01-25 10:39:06 (UTC)

Days 6,7,8,9

Is marriage worth it?
Now I am not married or anywhere near it, but obviously something came to mind for me to ask this question. I will not be able to answer it right now but hopefully someday I will. Right now, I don't want that, it is the farthest thing from my mind, but I hope one day I will find someone who will change my mind.

Do people realize when they've hurt someone?
Of course people have to know when they have hurt someone. Once you are around a person for a certain amount of time you know how they react to certain situations. Therefore, if this person is close to you, you know that you have hurt them. And even though you may not know the person very well you have to be aware of your actions. You know what you are doing to someone whether you know them well or not.

Are second chances possible?
I used to think this was true, but now I'm having trouble with that. Why give someone a second chance? They had the first one and if they screwed it up then why give them a chance to fail you again? Lately, it seems that I am not for second chances. I do believe this has some connection with why I won't forgive myself. I haven't forgiven myself because I don't think I deserve it. Not only that, but why should she forgive me and give me another chance? People who make mistakes learn from them, but it doesn't mean that we should give each other chances to ruin it again. It does not seem fair, but then it makes me wonder whether we would try harder.


Should we regret?
People can regret many things, but should we? I mean we did it in the first place so at one point whatever it is that we did we must have wanted it. I try not to regret my decisions or actions because, well, what's the point? It hurts everyday, even more when I think about it. The truth is though why dwell on it? (Besides the obvious) I'm not going to regret my decisions or actions because I acted like me. It is , I believe, what I would've done even if you replay and go back in time.


I still can't sleep. It's getting worse. School is helping with so much more than you will ever know. I mean not for my brain of course, I think Periodic Table will be the most challenging, maybe. At least in that class I have something or another to look at ;) Yes, yes I'm talking about good looking guys, they are the perfect distraction when you want to forget about someone else. Great Day dreaming.
Ohmmm Mark, Tim, and other white cute guy, plus the guy that's in SGA ( I think??) Sorry G, you are nowhere on my list, not even close.

SR




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