MikeT23

What makes me a little bit different...
2013-01-25 00:35:47 (UTC)

Being reliable for unreliables

So, I do have a reputation at work for being the most solid person there, or at least one of them. I'm known as the 'go to' kinda guy for the drivers, I'm unsure what managers think about me since they usually have their own agendas. I've been having some health issues lately and really need to go see a doctor. They told me I had the day off and then I get a call at 0730 with a, 'oops, we changed our mind!'. This has now happened six times to me. I'm pretty sure it only happens to me where they either cancel or postpone whatever it is I'm planning. I even had a day where I had to tell them no and then they asked why. I told them I had a flight already booked. Well, I didn't but my father was working on it that day and I wasn't going to call him and say, 'nope, not coming home because I'm being treated like a manager'. I'm frustrated by it. Actually, I'm more irate by it. I put in more time than most people do, I'm usually one of the last ones back, I'm expected to try to keep morale up, run health and safety AND sacrifice ANYTHING that maybe important to me. Why is this? Well, it's because I'm not married, I don't have kids and my family is a 14 hour drive away. Granted, a lot of time I don't mind working the over time but when I ask for something, I would assume it would be a, 'sure, we'll do our best to help you out'. Instead I get, 'umm, well, can you do it this week instead?' Or, 'That's ok by us' and the next day, last minute, told, 'Nope, too bad!' I'll be the first one to admit, I have difficulty saying no. I assume people should be aware of that since it's incredibly rare that I do and it usually eats me up inside when I have to. Why can't they just kindly give me the day off, make it a half day even, and then kindly go fuck off and leave me alone? It wouldn't be so bad if this happened to everyone but it seems to happen to me. I know a guy who came in last minute with a neck pain who went home. I know a guy who came in with a tooth ache and went home. I know another one who asked for the day off to finish his roof. ALL of them got the day off to recover. My problem has been going on for TWO months now. I sucked it up for Christmas, I even sucked it up for a bit after Christmas and yet I'm still expected to still suck it up. That's not the worst part. I don't think I'd mind so bad if they would just stop with the lip service and the half attempt to try to show they're still trying. It's not even a half attempt it's more a half ass attempt. When you give a driver 47 deliveries (his minimum is 52) and a RENTAL and say, 'oh, look, you can go to the doctor now' when he's already the last one back, you're actually just letting him get back when everyone else does! My numbers aren't too bad but in a Penske rental? I did 400km by 1845 and I'm expected to make time to go to a hospital and wait another few hours when I have to work the next day? I'm just tired of being lied to. It feels like it's just the same shit as usual except they at least act nice about it instead of saying, 'just fucking do your job'. I guess that's better than nothing. I just get confused why I'm the only one it happens to every time and not to anyone else. I'm already trained as a beaten dog coming out of Calgary. This time of year is harder on me because my brother in law killed himself around this time, I'm putting in 12 hour days, I don't get to spend the holidays with my family... and then I get paranoid that maybe I did something wrong and upset management somehow. I've seen how they can toy with someone to push them to that point, especially someone with a history of mental illness but I try to hope that it's not like that here but there's always a part of me that worries it still is.




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