NightmareOnElmStreet1

Freddy Krueger
2013-01-12 13:40:59 (UTC)

i dont even really know anymore..

Okay so since my last diary entry ive grown up a lot. Lost friends, gained new ones. i'm basically a different person. Ive been looking back and realized how different i used to be. Its weird haha. I go to a catholic high school and instead of always being negative im always positive. I drive a new 2011 chevy cruze. I have everything in my life i could have ever wanted. Except for love. Reading back into my other entries i've found that i've been yearning for this kinda love for years now. Not just an endless number of nights of sex, but an actual love. A fire that cannot be drenched by anyone or anything. Sex would be nice though.. lol.. I just had this weird ass dream last night though. It actually made me think to come on here and explain. Its kinda gross but i liked it haha. This boy in my glass, whose not that popular or out there, and i are hanging out. For some strange reason i decide to give him oral??? haha so weird but it happened. He didnt finish because we got distracted but he did pre a little. So we stopped and he told me not to tell anyone because he actually liked it. (which is weird because ii swear hes straight). I then promised him i'd finish my job later. Sooo weird. Sorry to whoever is reading this. Didnt want to create a porno for you but haha thats what happened. Ive been kinda liking him for a couple of weeks now but idunno.. hes not really my type which is why i dont get why i like him. Or why i just had that extremely awkward dream. I rarly think about him. Ever. And hes not all that. He's tall and skinny and hes cute. ehh.. Anyway. I lost this friend, her name was nicole. She also has an account on here. Dreamer881 i think. maybe its dreamer661........ idunno. She was my best friend for years but then she got this boyfriend. And we started not talking so much. Then the fights started. And of course everytime we faught shed get so mad and overdrmatic that shed decide it was best to end our friendship than try to fix it. Which is sad because weve been friends since we were young. So i spent 2011-2012 new years eve and new years day with her. i asked her if i could charge my phone in her car because my phone was dieing. She said NO because sdhe didnt want her car battery to die. lmfao yes you did just read that. i corrected her and told her that the car battery doesnt die like that ect.. ect... and she got mad because she said 'thats not what i was trying to say' well wtf thats kinda what you said. but anyway he got mad and berid of me. i think thats a word..... berid lmao. anyway shes a bitch. i have not talked to her once since january 1, 2012. SO exactly a year and 12 days. Thats crazy. i can honestly say i miss her sense of humor. but i dont miss her bitchyness at all. she deffinately was one of the biggest bitches i know. i just had to let that out because its beeen a whole year since ive actually been able to say that shit. [: Anyway. If anyone reads through this whole thing and doesnt think im completely crazy you should kik me? my kik is joevlol1 just say you read my diary. And then begin to explain how crazy i am. lmao.




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