DayDreamer23

Figurative Language
2013-01-11 20:36:30 (UTC)

School is cray

Dear Kitty,

I seriously hate finals. They kill me! This is why i choose to not go on power school to check my grades very frequently! It just makes me depressed! I have all A's and B's and then I get this fucking C in English because of grammar goddamnit! I got a B on my english final and it didn't even raise my grade! This is what sucks about school, because you try so hard and even when you're good at something you still don't get the recognition you deserve because everyone is too worried about grades and their GPA and getting straight A's! Well fuck straight A's because I'm going to learn at my own pace whether you give me a Fucking F or not! Sometimes I just want to kick my teachers in the face for behind shitty at their jobs, you're a high school teacher you aren't king of the fucking world. I can tell you one thing, I haven't learned much of anything in my honors English course because my teachers a dumbass just like last year! I feel like no one has been preparing me for the curriculum changes they make to high school, like you can't only feed middle schoolers literature and expect them to completely understand grammar in high school because now it's required! No you need to start things off younger so it isn't all such a shock when they do get the high school level material!
UGH! as you can tell i'm pissed about my grades and I want to throw things! I really don't understand school, like the way it works. No one obviously wants to be here! I would much rather do everything myself so that I didn't have to worry about grades and learning to keep up with everyone. There is a divided sense of knowledge at my school, where the kids who are very smart are given out amazing scores and grades and recognition because all they do is school and study and make sure they get good grades! While people like me are stuck because they have other interests! I love to write and read and dance and sing and paint and do so many things aside from my school work that I feel like i'm getting the short end of the stick because I'm well rounded.
The kids who do the best don't understand how to make friends or socialize with others. No i've never wanted to be that, i would love to get better grades but I don't think that straight A's in high school will land me any better of a future than them if i can put in the work else where.
I know that hard work is expected but I just think that I know what I really want and it's to write! I want to be published and maybe that means staying up too late writing and revising and editing and publishing and maybe forgetting a few homework problems...well so be it because I want this future.
I don't want to have a normal life or a normal job. I don't want to end up mediocre and average. I want to be different and love life, making an impact on the world with writing. That doesn't mean I'll be remembered forever by everyone...but it might mean I'll be remembered for a life time by some.
Sorry a little ranty at the beginning. i'm stressed. Thanks for listening.
-M




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