The Anonymous Writer

The Journal With No Name
2013-01-07 21:03:22 (UTC)

Be Careful With What You Wish For

Dear Journal,

Now that Esther can no longer hang out with Shirley, I'm Shirley's go to person. However I don't want to be that person! Fuck that shit, that's not they type of person I want to be. Now, she's going to ask me to do everything with her when in reality I'm going to be busy with my tennis. But the times I am free? Fuck her, I'm not hanging with that slut.

She hasn't even told me about her losing her virginity. And she told Bea. Who in which is worse to tell than me. But somehow she did, and it's now making me upset.

So you know what? Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it, and what you get isn't what you may always want. Even if you think you've wanted it so badly, you just don't.

Now I know this sounds awful, but I really hope this doesn't inspire Esther to work hard at tennis. She won't have Shirley and yeah she will have Bea and Avani and me but..... the time she has free while we are all busy (which is a lot because we do stuff with our lives) will she focus her time on tennis? Ugh, she could get so much better than me in a blink of the eye. She really is talented, she just doesn't try!! Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I don't know what to do.

She probably won't though. Right? She's a lazy girl. I'll just have to hope for the best.

Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Anyway, my aunt came in. She is so sweet and lovely. She's the type of person who's so kind that you mistake it for being completely superficial when in all reality that's not the case! But somehow my mom still hates her guts. She won't take anything my aunt has to say and acts very bitter towards her. It's actually awful that she does that. And it's even worse when my mom talks shit about this aunt behind that aunt's back and tells me not to entrust my aunt's words.

It's actually insane. My dad is even looking at her in disgust.

Sometimes I really am embarrassed of my mother. She can be the biggest bitch I know. And that's not the hormones kicking in, ladies and gentlemen. Fuck that shit. It's most definitely a fact; my dad knows, my sisters know, I know, and some of her workers know. And honestly, I can't respect her when she acts like that. It gets really bad sometimes.

How about this: I wish for my mom to not be a bitch.

That is something I want to happen. I'd be totally okay with that coming true! Not only would my dad be happy, but my mom would be less stressed too. It's really a win-win. Now only if this can happen.

Signing out,
Brooke Something




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