littleshauna99

Life of Me
2013-01-03 21:38:12 (UTC)

confused with life.

Dear Diary
Have you ever had that feeling like you are alone or your just never going to get better? That's the way I feel. I don't know whats wrong with me! I've been crying to myself alot lately and yesterday I was in a really bad mood. I take my moods out on everybody exspecially my mum. I hate shouting or upsetting her it's just she really annoys me sometimes. No body knows I'm feeling like this. I want to tell people. But I'm just to scared. I really want help... I want to get better, I want to be back to normal. I've been keeping a smile on my face to convince people I'm so happy. But I just can't help it when I come alone in my bedroom or bathroom and cry for about an hour. I'm going back to school on monday and I'm stressing over my grades and How I'm going to feel being back in school, I have loads of questions. What if I start to be depressed, again? what if i fail my exams and I upset my family? What if i accidently shout at my friends and fight with them? I don't need anymore problems in my life. At the moment I'm In bed (alone). My mum has asked me to come downstairs several times. she also asked me to go to the cinema tommorrow, but i don't want to go. I miss my mum so much. I miss being close to her. I hate being mean to her. We used to do everything together but Jonathan (her partner of 5 years) is taking her away from me). I miss my old life...:(
Love
Littleshauna99 x




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