Fallen from Grace
2012-12-30 12:09:43 (UTC)

Return of confusion

Dear Diary,
Yesterday was rather nice. I went to volunteer again not much community service left. I like it. Its rewarding. I volunteer at a church thrift store. I worked from 9am to 1 the last 2 days cleaning and what not. It makes me feel needed again. I love it. Anyways So I went to work yesterday and I got home day was going like usual. Played Xbox while the neighbor was here when someone who has been on my mind a lot lately. John called me. Oh how I have missed him. He has asked me to come back to St. Louis. I am scared to go back. Scared of What? I am scared of no one but rather I almost killed myself the last 2 times I was there. I just do not want to fall back into depression is all. I will consider it since I can't just up and leave Florida cause I'm probation. This is something that will take a lot of thought. I have a habit of jumping the gun and shooting myself in the foot. I know I could do it with John then I could see my cousin Jana amoungst other friends.