Chase Away The Darkness
I regret life.
I regret pills. I regret telling Lily I took those pills. I regret this.
I regret this all.
I just want to... I won't say it. But its all so stupid. Life is. I hate it. Hate it. Fuck it. Fuck this all.
My world feels too endless. I'll fucking grow up and get a nice fucking job that I'll hate and maybe get married and have kids that will hate me and I'll be poor as fucking dirt.
Why is it all so predictable?
I don't like it. I'm not afraid, I want to be afraid. I want to hurt worse and I can't. I don't have anything to lose.
I want something to lose.
I want something to risk.