2012-12-29 14:30:17 (UTC)

Chase Away The Darkness

I regret life.

I regret pills. I regret telling Lily I took those pills. I regret this.

I regret this all.

I just want to... I won't say it. But its all so stupid. Life is. I hate it. Hate it. Fuck it. Fuck this all.

My world feels too endless. I'll fucking grow up and get a nice fucking job that I'll hate and maybe get married and have kids that will hate me and I'll be poor as fucking dirt.

Why is it all so predictable?

I don't like it. I'm not afraid, I want to be afraid. I want to hurt worse and I can't. I don't have anything to lose.

I want something to lose.

I want something to risk.