Mary-Jane Terrace

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2012-12-28 13:15:24 (UTC)

I Hate This

I'm crying over my missing cat, because it's just now that I'm realizing I may never see her again, and damn does that hurt.

I may be over-reacting to some of you, being this distraught over a pet, but I'm an animal lover, and I really can't help it.

I don't know, this morning isn't going so smooth for me. I'm having a lot of time to think, which we all know is bad, and I'm digging a hole for myself.

I'm just thinking about everything now, about how much I'm dreading the start up of school in a few weeks, about how lonely I am, about how I'm disappointing my parents on a daily by smoking and lying and being a shitty person.

I've been at this cross-road in my life for so long. I'm not stupid enough to think that I'm the only person who goes through this shit, but I do know that I feel so lonely.

So lonely.




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