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The Marble Hornet Entries
2012-12-26 23:46:42 (UTC)

i finally got it.. but with someone else?

Ok some time a few months ago i was chasing this girl named Ashley, pretty chick she was, but after a fight i had not spoken to her. this lead me to feel down for a few days then i was picked up and had a good life, 2 months later she decided to become friends with me again which made me happy, but she is in a relationship, so that chance was well down the drain. so i did not bother with love, had a few more chances, all did not go well. but there was this one girl, Montana, beautiful like an angel. she was in a relationship and i was a good brother to her, but after a horrid break up she turned to me. she decided she wanted to be my girlfriend. i was flattered and so i tried everything i could for her to say yes, i told her i loved her and everything, 1 week went by and she was holding my hand and almost kissed me, she was in love with me, but i was well in love with her, she was perfect and everything to me. i continued to try and i made a move, i wrote the longest note ever

"Ok here we go
3PM and i have to ask you the question
now this is going to be long so don't judge it till the end ok *exhales* im scared

Montana, The day i met you i was shy due to the fact that i had never seen you, But from that day onward we became really close, brother and sister. I still remember all the memories: The day we ran to Southern Cross, The day we got your bracelet and last week with the lunch. Every moment with you is very precious. I have a few things to confess; number 1.From the first day we went to the city and around on wards i had grown a liking to you, I always found you quirky but in a good way. I felt like you were like an angel, but last week when you looked like a "Greek goddess" (that was true) i had never felt the same before. My heart skipped a beat every time i saw you. You were just beautiful and amazing. That night i went home i actually fell in love you, Even though you were taken, I couldn't let this happen. The next day i got that call which i honestly never wanted to get. You and Jordan both broke up, And that hurt me too as i helped through out the whole thing. The day after i remember clearly. You were texting me and i said some nice things to comfort you. I said this one bit "you light up everyone world, especially mine" You got a bit shocked then you said the words which honestly changed my world "maybe we should go out", My heart literally was pumping out of my chest, And so i stayed close to you, Then the day when i went to the plaza and had like the best day ever with you. You held my hand and i felt really weird and happy
I was in love, and from that day i got more in love with you,
And then Highpoint was the day which i wished happened.
You kept going on about a surprise,
Which to this day i still wonder what it was.
I just enjoyed that day with you,
Then we went home and i was sad as i would no for a while. But then a sentence that hurt. You told me that u wanted to stay single for a while,
And honestly i fell down a hole and never stopped.
Was this my chance over and done with?
I was scared and sad.
But then yesterday u said i could have a chance,
But i don't know when that is
so I'm going to as you this...
Montana, will you be a part or my life, Will you love me more then just a brother, Will you be my girlfriend
If u need time to think that's ok
I Love You.
I'm sorry this feels like I'm pushing you, if I am I'm so sorry, and we can continue being great friends."


this was it
i then got the response.
she did not say no, she said she needed time, and so im up to today which was the most insane day.
she went on to say yes, but then changed her mind in a split second,
i was confused and hurt, did i loose this chance?
but i talked it out with her,
and then more lovey dovey stuff. so tommorrow i get to see her and i hope i get to be with her.




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