peaches

Daily life
2012-12-23 09:42:21 (UTC)

Things I have on mind...

Dear Diary,
I know this is my first entry and having to find out this website even exists... but anyway that is beside the point. Tonight and lately I have been thinking alot about "things" and I've came to a conclusion. Probably as some people have noticed that I am "messed" in the head. Due to past experiences, are things i cannot erase.... As for my conclusion i feel like im so stuck on the feeling of being heartbroken im stopping myself from opening myself up to new relationships. I know that maybe sad to say but its the truth. Ive been hurt too many times to count, I distract myself from thinking about the one person i used to and (still care about)when i have the time, i go back to thinking about what was mine. I try to explain how i feel but it doesnt seem to work out for me... I think in his own mind that im "obsessed" but clearly im NOT!... Im trying to repatch things and i know in my own heart i cant fix it. I also know i cant claim back that used to be mine and in the first place(beginning) i was the one that decided to take the big step forward. I shouldnt blame myself and im sure if anyone were to read this, they know exactly who im talking about.....




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