badkidd

Lonely boy..
2012-12-20 12:13:07 (UTC)

hmmmm....

toda i wokup so early i mean at 7 30 but as usual laid on the bed till 8.20.. bt applied some oil on ma hair toady.. and had brkfst finished 9 am and reached class at 9.15 i think... i was d first one to resch there.. then only sona and sandeep came.. i was sittting in the second back raw alone.. later K joined me.. as usual, she came so late.. i think at 9.50 am... 1st hr i didnt undestand anything AT ALL.. the 2nd we were called to d frnt raw by senthil raja sar.. but i cud understad something out of his lecture and i cud appreciate it too.. but i was silent in d class as usual..
in d beginning of 3rd hr K kept 1 chair from me and sat a little away.. she had told me that she cudnt understad anythin in 2nd hr.. and i told her that i understood something..and "stay with me u 'll get full marks.." she was laughing then but i think it had an effect and thats y she moved away.. she must have realized that im a stpid idiot.. and a fucking loser in life...

then but in d lunch break, she asked me to stay/wait for her.. but i didnt.. actually they were surrounding the teacher and askin so many doubts..a nd even she also wanted to ask some doubts.. so i left to guesthouse.. i reache dma room and played some songs till 1.50.. then wen 4 lunch.. she was there.. bt didnt say anythin abt y didnt i wait 4 her..

then i went to her room.. actually she called me 4 dat.. but reachin there, she gave me biscuits and said, "just 2 minutes u just stay outside.." i asked, "what is it prayer or what" she said no, then i go, " ok u want 2 change or somethin like that?" she goes," yeah.." then i stayed outside..
it took abt 5 mins.. i think she was changing her pads/underpants or something like that.. coz she opened the doors with some handwash/cleaning lotion kinda stuff's botle.. and she was applying it to both her palms.. then i understood that something like i above said must have been the reason.. but i didnt ask again.. then we both went to the computer lab together...

the remaining story was not good so letme finish it here.. it was some MPI program and i cusnt understand..and i was sittin alone near the 1st comp... another thing was that i was pissed off by hindi of the teacher to me... again K was near to me at taht time and 1st she was kinda laughing...

i was surprised by ppl's bahavior there.. evryone is understanding things.. and i am the only one who doesnot.. and the only one who has lost interest and brains too..yes all others are enjoying the classes and i am fucked up... they r asking doubts and im sittin alone in some corner like an extra stuff.....
and i came out at 3.30 after a long time of awaiting for the attendance sheet to come.. some p.hd students and maneesh too.. but i know even they will manage to get good marks.. at the end..
and u know kriti came to guest house at 5.30pm only.. i dnt know how these ppl r doing this.. i came to know that K, rahl, jyoti, sona, sandeep and pratanu r d only ppl who stayed in d lab till late.. oh my god.. i feel like im so doomed..





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