the broken girl

bruised and scarred
2012-12-15 21:44:32 (UTC)

the shit that makes me depressed </3

i have been depressed since last week but its not as bad i thought it was but now its really bad i feel worthless, unwanted ulgy shitty yeah its goes on forever its comes & goes why cant it gone forever or stay forever why? i dont even know why im alivemy grade suck, my life suck evety thing suck i dont wanna be alive i feel like a penny u dont want it any more so u jus throw it away on the roads trash can. i cried my self to sleep last night & im crying again. how can i live in this house when its not even peaceful jus tell me how can i?? with my grandma yelling every 5 seconds. i need my dad rite now i have thought of cutting. teachers putting presure on me when i already have my own problems. i have tons of friends but yet i still like this. my body disgusted me im so skinny and ppl thinks its fun to be this skinny its not, looking at my self naked in the mirror i jus wanna throw a stone at it so it wud break and i wouldnt see how ulgy my body is. they sed that in so skinny but its it my fault i cant gain weight i want all this pain to go away and theres two way talk it out but with who i tell me mom she wouldnt do shit expect jus yell at me the lastly cut it ALWAYS takes the pain away i have cut before so im not new at this it hurts ALOT! to take this pain i go frm happy to sad in 0.2 seconds i wish the world can end so i dont have go through this it hurts like hell. i need someone who would talk bot this. i hate my life i wish i wasnt here i could have die instead the 21 children whos now dead theres jus 5-10 years old kids i could have die instead of them </3 in my room sitting on the floor crying. im so sorry if i cut :,(

love raveena.....

jus here crying nothing special jus feeling like shit......





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