LustingforNightmares

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2012-12-01 10:54:10 (UTC)

Snow


December 1, 2012

"Closing Time" by Semisonic


Okay, so I woke up and there was snow everywhere outside. The little kid from across the street just slid down his hill backwards. There is no wind outside but the sky is completely white. There are only one or two inches of snow, unfortunately, but hey! Snow is snow, and I missed snow.

I didn't think it was coming this year, and I am thanking my personal god who... OKay, nevermind, my personal god did not decide to come back. I used to have a personal god in my head who looked like random people who could matter to me but don't, yet he still watched me and tried to make sure I was all right.

I tried to imagine him on the night I took too many pills, but he was gone and has been ever since. I guess you could call him my imaginary friend, because if he were really my god I don't think he'd disappear.

I'm not religious and I don't believe in god, I just believe in someone watching me always. It's weird, huh? I was always paranoid, so I made a person who changed his face and body etc. constantly but was always there, watching me and making sure I was alright.

Like I said, he's gone now. The last day, I believe he was obama, but he might've been a razor.

Okay, I got really off topic. I wanted to say I hate all my friends. Not in a mean way, but I just realized I've been feeling bitter towards Gillian and Aaron, Aid is too unpredictable, Erica and I don't talk enough, Lily... I don't even know what happened with Lily, I just don't think we know each other as well as we used to.

And that's like all the friends I can list right now. I don't want to talk to any of them.
There should literally be a mood called FUCK YOU. Lol, that would be my mood all the time.

:(


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