Well, where do I start? I feel like this diary will help my sanity! Writing tends to ease the soul I guess...
Ever since I can remember I've been sensitive, needy but independent. Especially when it comes to the male species, I'm married now, but often wish I wasn't. It's not even been a year since the big day and I've already got doubts...
It's not that I don't love him, I do, but his drinking is spiralling out of control, work is tough at the moment and that baby isn't coming!
I feel like I'm split between 2 personalities, one wanting to be the family perfect mummy etc, and another wanting to play the field, when I go out with the girls, without sounding big headed, I get a lot of attention. My friends have admitted they're jealous.. Jeez I sound awful!! I'm really not, my friends say I have the biggest heart and I would do anything for my family and friends... My friends know me as the 'innocent one' the fellas fall for my innocent charms according to them... I don't know. I'm definitely NOT innocent... Not in my mind anyway, it's only a matter of time before I falter again... More to follow!