The Underground Woman

Out of Spite
2012-11-11 04:24:35 (UTC)

Wanting a fantasy

I hate this feeling. I'm so.. lonely. I literally spent the entire day in bed. I just don't have the energy to get up. I hurt all over... I just want to sleep though... I want people to leave me alone... I like talking to Lawrence though... I just... get so depressed. It corrupts my relationship with him.

I find it hard to smile and talk...
I don't like moving or waking up...
I want to dream... good dreams...

I want... -sigh- what i want is a fantasy... It could never come true. My reality is already on a path of destruction.

Everyone already blames me for everything... Kenzie, my mom, Jimmy, Nayeli... Why does everything have to be my fault? Why am I always the one to be persecuted... why can't people just leave me alone in peace..
--Rina/Sabrina/Deadsoul




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