Peter69

My Love, My Thoughts, My Anguish!
2012-09-23 01:06:43 (UTC)

Negativity and non spontaneity.

Today I had to force the dragon to actually do something spontaneous. I can't do anything spontaneous here.It has to be planned.
Even me taking a shower.... I get told off or made to feel guilty if I don't let the dragon know I'm having a shower. FFS!!!
You know... I feel like a prisoner sometimes. I can't move or do something without the permission of the dragon.
Well anyway I said that since it was a beautiful day. Lets go for a drive and I'll get everything ready and even do the driving. But no.... it was not as easy as that. Dragon got nervous and wanted to know exactly where, when and how long we were going. I said if it's too hard or too much for you I wont bother... but after a few hours dragon agreed.
And that is an example why I can't do anything spontaneous. Mind you it doesn't happen too often with the dragon around.
I didn't know that dragons could be so negative.
So anyway we did and I had a backseat driver with me all the way.... FFS!!! We argued about that on the way while driving around too.

I cannot do anything right!

After coming home today the dragon fell asleep within half an hour.... snoring its head off.
So I went and got the clothes off the line.
Oh that reminds me... if I go out and dragon does something like taking rubbish bins to the curb of the driveway. She expects me to praise her and thank her for doing so... and yet I get nothing like that at all. FFS!!!
I'm expected to say I missed the dragon everytime it goes out somewhere for the afternoon which is usually about 2 hours. Barely enough time to be missed really!

I thought of you and wondered if you were having a hard time like me. And what you were doing too.
Speaking of spontaneous.... when I thought of just getting in the car and going for a drive. I was thinking of how spontaneous you and I were.....
;-D
And thought about how such a fantastic woman you are and how happy that I made you when we were together....
Miss you. I hope in some small way you do miss me too.
Goodnight babe. Sweet dreams....

One more thing. Am I crazy in thinking these things are not normal and that I am in a wrong relationship with negativity and have to many demands put upon me???
one thing for sure is that I am never gonna get married again.
Can I be your lover/toyboy/friend/soulmate?
Nite.... Xxxx.




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