ChibiDani

University Life
2012-09-22 23:39:30 (UTC)

Frustration

Today my parents came up to see me with my grandparents. It was a nice visit and I showed them around town. However they didn't stay long, maybe for only an hour. As soon as they left I started crying. I just wanted to go home with them. I do like where I'm living but I just miss my family. It's normal to be homesick, but I just hate feeling like this. I can't even Skype them because the internet is so crap that Skype doesn't connect.

Me and my boyfriend broke up yesterday after 11 months. His culture is totally different from mine. Here, hugging a guy is totally normal, nothing special about it. But to him, it was like an act of betrayal, as if I'd cheated on him. I explained to him we have different cultures and that it didn't mean anything. A hug is a hug. He said that he can't overcome the culture difference so he said he needed time to 'fix his mind'.

By this point I was just past caring and let him do what he wanted. We have been speaking since but he told me he was drinking with his friends and he becomes a right idiot when he drinks. I then realised I had no right to get angry or upset about it as we are no longer together. It makes me angry that he wanted to break up over something so stupid. I have never cheated on him and never planned to but he just doesn't understand that. I'm so frustrated that he acts as if his life is shit and he can't handle the pressure at school. I wish he would grow the fuck up. He's such an immature child who needs realise life is fucking shit, deal with it.

It just hurts me that now he can do whatever he wants: kiss another girl, sleep with another girl and I can't stop him or get angry about it. I still love him but I honestly don't know if he feels the same. I'm tired of feeling like this, like I'm trapped. I just wanna drink to forget everything for a while...




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