Kath

Inside my life
2012-09-15 09:24:21 (UTC)

Things have been better.

Dear diary..
Yup! Things have been alot better since i've started in school. My last year of school. Me and the rest of my class, was the ''big'' kids now. We own the school..
I started focus 100% in school and not talk that much.. Ive got better grades already. Its nice to see how things change! and ive started to change to, in the right way. I know some of my ''old'' friends doesnt like me now, but i like myself, i like the fact that ive been stronger. Im happy now and i can finaly see the positive end. -Ive been waiting for that to come in sooo long time now. So yay!

But.
I actually have a problem.. Its not a problem with friends og family.. but with boys. im a mess when it comes to boys. I fall in love WAY TO EASY. and sometimes i just want the boys only as ''kissing friends' So yeah.. ive broken some hearts and been a bad girl when it comes to that :-/ And for the record. Ive got my heart broken before.. by a same person as me (a boy ofc) he just wanted me as his kissing friend (-its him from the summer) So yeah.. i got what i deserved.

Now to the point. I think im about to fall inlove with my really good(girl) friend's twin brother. damn. And the fact is, my old best friend still likes him -.- Yeah.. But! Me and the twin brother has been together at my place (without kissing) just cuddling and holding hands.. watching movies.. And my old best friend haven't been together with him privet. But i was still confused if he really liked me. Bc.. When we where in school he just ignored me kinda. but! when my old best friend was sick some days he started to be more around me and laugh with me..
So i took the easy choice. I asked him on formspring.
But it made me more confused! bc. the question was: 'Is there a girl u like better than others these days?'
and his answer was: 'Yup'
Gosh i was confused. So i asked him face to face, witch didnt help a lot.. he understood that i was really confused! and we made a deal to talk about it over text.. (Was he afraid to say that it wassnt me?)
He told me that i shouldn't worry about my old best friend and that i think that im really sweet. BUT!!! It still didnt give me an answer!? Was it me or not!


WHAT SHOULD I DO!? Oh god help -.-




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