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2012-09-11 13:16:11 (UTC)

Invisible Convenience

Do you ever view service to be an ‘invisible convenience’ to your owner?
i got this from a submissive journal prompts website that i go to every now and then. i like reading the questions there, but if i answer one then i write it here and send it to Master.
The way this question is worded it seems to be asking, “do you feel invisible to Your Owner? Does He take you for granted and only value the conveniences you provide for Him?”
i know Master loves me because i’m too much trouble for Him to keep me around if it was for convenience. Our relationship is definitely not convenient, so He would be stupid to stay if that was His motive. So if the question means do i feel invisible the answer is no. i don’t think He loves me for convenience because He’s not an idiot.
But i do think there are many ways i serve Him that are invisible. It’s a long-distance relationship. He can’t see everything. And a lot of the things that He can’t see are a convenience to Him but to myself as well. For instance, if i’m at work and someone offers me a cigarette and i say no, that’s an invisible service to Him. It’s convenient for Him because i’m becoming more obedient, and it’s convenient for me (in the long-run) because i’m learning to prioritize obedience to my Master over my immediate wants.
i don’t believe in ostentatious service. i might become that way if Master never told me He appreciated me or loved me, if He never acted like He even noticed me or what i do. But He isn’t that kind of Master, so i don’t have to show off when i do something for Him. What’s wrong with silent service, with invisible convenience? If i were to make His bed in the mornings (if He slept in one), that’s invisible convenience...
So how do i view service? i view service as love. Being a convenience in my opinion is another way of saying being helpful. Of course i view service as helpful. It SHOULD be convenient. i wouldn’t want my service to be inconvenient. What kind of service is that? But it’s not just about a cold, unfeeling list of things to do to make His life better. This is a symbiotic relationship. He gives me all i want: love, support, friendship, the opportunity to show Him my love through my collar…i don’t have to feel weird about wanting to kneel before Him. i don’t have to feel like i’m wrong for asking His permission for things. He took me out of that world. i can be myself. i don’t have to hide. He has never made me feel ashamed of who i am.
And i will do anything to thank Him for that. It’s why He Owns my life. i trust Him, and i love Him. my service to Him is my thanks. It’s how i show Him my love because i can’t always put it in words. If there is something that needs to be done, if there is anything i can do for Him, it doesn’t matter if He notices. It doesn’t matter if i tell Him i did it. As long as He knows i love Him, that’s what matters. But He notices everything. He doesn’t overlook me. i don’t have to announce i have made Him coffee. If i know how He likes it, i can just bring Him a cup. Why are words necessary?
It seems to me that people overlook the importance of love in many things. Master watching where i am going to make sure i don’t hurt myself is definitely a silent convenience. If He will do that for me, why wouldn’t i do it for Him? Serving in silence can be a powerful thing. Maybe some slaves have to worry about being ignored, but i don’t. Master always appreciates what i do for Him, just as i always appreciate what He does for me.

3/16/12




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