MasterWolf_ncs_lilbrat

my Journey
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2012-09-11 13:03:01 (UTC)

*Faceless*

All of my reasons seem like excuses
And to You when i’m honest i’m lying
Everything i try blows up around me
Gets harder and harder to cry

Stuck in a hole i can’t seem to get out of
i know You have no trust in me
Painfully obvious cause when i try
You look for me to harbor deceit

i’m defeated. i’m scared.
You’re left unaware.
i don’t tell You. i just hold it in.
and as You walk away
The tears fall unrestrained
i just don’t know where i can begin.

Parameters change, i question things
Doesn’t mean i have motives to hide
i am coming to You because You make the rules
And i want to live by them this time

i try to get closer, to show You i listen
Each step seems to push You away
Every move that i make
Seems like one more mistake
And i don’t know what else i can say

i’m defeated. i’m scared.
You’re left unaware.
i don’t tell You. i just hold it in.
And as You walk away
The tears fall unrestrained
i just don’t know where i can begin.

Time is so limited
Let’s make the most of it
i am not trying to argue
i don’t want us to waste
What cannot be erased
Haven’t we done that enough?

i’m defeated. i’m scared
You’re left unaware.
i don’t tell You. i just hold it in.
And as You walk away
The tears fall unrestrained
i just don’t know where i can begin.
The deafening silence increasingly heavy
The weight it just grates and it grates
As i falter beneath i feel like such a failure
Was trying to do the right thing

Stand at a distance unsure what to say
i’d give anything just to take all this away
But it’s here and it’s staying
The price i am paying
i’m poured out and broken and shamed

i’m defeated. i’m scared.
You’re left unaware.
i don’t tell You. i just hold it in.
And as You walk away
The tears fall unrestrained
i just don’t know where i can begin.

~lilbrat~
summer 2011


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