Lulu

When Will It End?
2012-08-30 19:29:15 (UTC)

When will it just get better?

Every time I try to be genuinely happy or something goes good for me; some shit happens to piss me the fuck off or makes me hate my life even more or some asshole ruins it. Like my bitch ass grandma... It's usually her. She's such a fucking loser and I hate her... Not literally since you shouldn't "hate" anyone; but she ruins my life... Sometimes my grandpa does too; but not as much as my grandma. I try so fucking hard to be happy or stay happy - even when I'm already depressed I try; but something just topples my happiness. And it goes away. I can't stay happy ever for more than an hour for whatever reasons... I swear I have bad luck sometimes... I really think I have it. It's just bad news; then something bad happens; then something good MIGHT happen or I'm happy for whatever reason for at MOST an hour; but then bad news comes again or something bad happens again. It's like a cycle for me. The cycle of bad luck or the cycle of the depressed life...




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