Musicaltears

Earth to Sky
2012-07-30 00:48:12 (UTC)

Today.

Today I went shopping. Typically I like shopping I really do. What I don't like is looking in the mirror after putting something on. That's when the. My stomach sticks out too far. My chest is too flat. My hips are too wide. This looks bad. This makes me look super pale. This looks bad. This looks bad. Everything looks bad. That's when I try on the first thing. Then I try something else on, and hate it too. I hate my body a lot. I wish I was a lot smaller. Today wasn't really like that. I went into rue 21 picked out a really frilly teal shirt. I put it on. I felt great in it. I put on a blue cardigan I didn't feel as good, but I still liked it kind of. I got a bunch of clothes I actually like. I don't know what it was, but I got a slight confidence boost. Then I remembered I've lost weight which is probably why I felt better in clothes today. So for lunch I went straight for salad. I need to exercise more too, or else I'll gain weight again. Then I'll hate clothes again. Donna bought spaceballs and a Foreigner CD. I've been listening to Foreigner a lot, which might make them my favorite band now. I felt awesome today also because I drove all the way to Brandon for the first time. Which is an hour and a half drive. There are so many idiots on the road. I kept getting really annoyed. I got home, ate too much, watched some of spaceballs, and now I'm talking to Nathan. Nathan came over last night it was awesome. I love getting to see him. Every time he comes over we watch a movie. We watched Labyrinth. Which I've always wanted to see, however, I was distracted. I didn't catch any of it really. Maybe the very beginning, and the very ending. Then we watched a movie called Short Circuit. I caught most of that one. I can tell you most of the characters, and the basic plot. Anyways, I really enjoyed yesterday. I love getting to see Nathan. I never want to let him leave, but I enjoy getting to see him. I'm on the phone with him as I'm typing this actually. I'm not talking much, but I will once I'm done with this diary entry. Oh, I need to cover this too just because I don't think I've updated my diary on this I play Tuba now. I feel like I'm failing at it just because I'm not as good as everyone else yet. Nathan says I'm doing well, and I believe him...or at least I'm trying to believe him. Well I'm going to end this now, and go talk to Nathan. :)




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